Day 2, Part 1

Today started like every other day of my life, which was unfortunate.

I already broke one rule I made about this diet thing... I was going to get sleep. Last night I swore I was going to be in bed asleep by 11pm. I was even yawning like crazy at 10:30. I was on the downhill slope, it was going to follow my rule I was most scared of obeying.

And then Hugh Jackman happened. My husband turned on the movie Real Steel and he told me that if I wanted to go to bed that he'd watch it with me again in the morning. I said, "Good plan." And that was the end. I was gone. The movie (Hugh Jackman) pulled me in. The plot (Hugh Jackman) was interesting and the morale of the story (Hugh Jackman) was completely endearing. It was over by 1am, two hours past my planned bedtime, which put my actually falling asleep time close to 2am.

I suck.

This morning came too soon--waking up at 6:30am with my kids, ugh--I drank a bottle of water thinking I would stay motivated through the morning. It wasn't raining and I wanted to take the dog on a walk, get moving, you know?

I suck.

I fell asleep on the recliner and slept for over an hour... like I do every other morning... like I told myself I wasn't going to do once I started this diet. Bleh.

I suck.

And then, I woke up from my nap with vigor and determination. I was still going to walk. I had to.  So, I got myself dressed, my son dressed and took him to school. And from the school I walked. And I walked some more. My feet hurt, my butt hurt, and I had a raging headache from lack of sleep. But I did it. 1.71 miles total. Amazing. *high five*

Now that I got moving I need to focus on food. This is my true struggle. It's not really about eating the right stuff but eating enough of it. My day ended with 4 points remaining on my daily WW allowance. That is a big no-no. Eat all your points! they say. Well, hell. It's difficult!

My body is going to remain in starvation mode and not let go of this weight. I'm trying to rewire my brain to convince myself that I am hungry for a real breakfast (bowl of Special K this morning) and again at noon (now--which I have no desire to eat) and I should have a snack in the afternoon (which I need to force myself to have), and then I'll want to eat dinner. I don't see that happening.

And want to know another bitch? Time management. I suck at it. Trying to figure out my food and exercise needs and then my kids' food needs and homework and chores and then play referee most the afternoon... I'm not sure how I'll juggle it all.

My wise friend said to me yesterday, "We're fumbling now but pretty soon we'll have more energy and get things done more quickly and have more time."

I'm holding you to that, friend!

In the meantime I'm going to get up, get moving, make a high point sandwich (yay for multigrain bread--lots of points but also lots of whole-grain goodness!)

Let's hope by the end of the day I'll be able to say it was a great day. *fingers crossed*